Lonepwn, 30

A heaviness, a readiness to get back into bed A sadness that I can't explain, a cloud over my head My deepest, darkest fears, feel like they're filling up an ocean And I'm floating on the surface with no hope to keep me going I've been down on myself, man, I forgot how to believe in me I never asked for help, now I just struggle with it secretly I wish that it was something I could sweep under the carpet Tryna hide it all the time only makes the battle harder Man, I lived a lot of moments that I probably should've cherished Now they seem so far away from me, I'm angry and embarrassed I can't even tell my parents, they don't need to keep on worrying My mama and my papa don't deserve to have to bury me I hope the pills I have will hold me over for a while I'll keep searching for the strength to find my smile